Bring Me Out Of The Curse

when it comes to make a decision , it always hard for me . i've been through this a few times before . and i hate those kind of feelings which i can never concentrate on my daily routine and i make a lot of calls for asking some suggestion from the elders . i finished my credit rm10 for two days only for this practical thingy ! isn't that bad ? i've been through this once when i've to decide whether to further on my diploma in accountancy or matriculation at perak . i was so messy thinking about the best decision i should made . i do calls my senior and my teacher . too bad when i am so depending person because i will make a decision based on my friend's decision . the main reason because i'm fear to adopt new environment and taking a risk for the decision i've made . simple to say , i am a risk adverse person ! ohh :( if people look at me , i'm very sure they will like 100% unbelieved me since i look so independent and easy going person but the fact is i'am not , not at all . i would rather have limited choice rather than lots of choices which make me more confuse . please A , guide me to make this decision . sangat buntu :'(

Love , Yana ♥

I Need A New Therapy

yesza , tah kenape asek sebot jewp perkataan tuh kebelakangan ni . okay , tajok dalam english tapi entry kali ni totally in bahasa . mungkin sebab tekanan yang di alami , maka takde mood nak tulis dalam english . blog ni aku create sebab nak jadi tempat aku bercerita dengan diri sendiri and lepaskan tekanan , so if u all rase annoying bile bace blog ni , feel free to click the x-button at the right on the top okay ?

lets start ! kenape kebelakangan ni aku rase macam everything is not right . impak dari process adoption yang aku alami kot ? macam susah sangat nak terima sesuatu yang baru ? kenape tah ? aku memang degil ke ? yes , tapi aku takde la sampai orang kedah cakap , ketegaq ! atau mungkin aku ego ? ye aku ego eh tapi takde lah ego sangat , atau mungkin aku memang ego tapi aku taknak mengaku ? urgh !

seriously , i miss my school days . hah like seriously i mean it ! zaman hanya perlu bermalas-malasan tanpa menyiapkan homework yang cikgu kasi dan makan lauk ayam masak merah dekat DM . petang2 tido kat prep pastu malam berborak non stop . tapi result still maintain konon nye macam aku belajar stay up sampai pukul 3 pagi . aku suke giler perasaan tu :)

tapi sekarang ? aku kene stay up sampai pukul 5 pagi but still result nye macam lah aku ni setiap kali pukul 12 dah tido haaa . penat ! aku penat ! dala menapak ke kelas memang menguji kesabaran aku . even aku menapak sampai ketiak basah berpeluh-peluh tapi badan aku tetap maintain macam aku makan ayam goreng mekdi hari-hari . then belum masok part kerje kumpulan , hah yang tu aku memang malas nak komen . simpan jelaa , itu yang terbaek agak nye .

kadang-kadang aku rase macam nak tukar uni hah uitm boleh tak ? aku nak masok um atau ukm tapi aku still nak bayar yuran macam dekat uitm hehe * kedekot kan aku ? aku ade impian ! aku selalu cakap kat WAWA yang aku kan nak pergi kat satu tempat yang aku tak kenal orang and orang pon tak kenal aku . pastu aku nak mulakan hidup baru yeah :) tapi yang best , aku nak kahwin . awak , awak yang kat sane tuh , cepat la pinang saye ! HAHA :D

Love , Yana ♥

How Should I Start ?

yeah , everyone's expecting life campus is the most interesting and fun , but not me . i'm not sure why i'm making this statement . life becomes harder and i always failed to manage it well . i cant even imagine hows my life is going to be when i working in future . the best part of my life is during primary school . i do involve in every event that my school organize and its fun . i didn't have to study hard , stay up at late night but still i manage to get good result :) the second best part of my life is during secondary school , which i gain a lots of experience there . i have my own clan and they are the best friends i ever had . they always helping each other and i've learn so much from them . ohh i miss u guys like i really mean it :') currently i'm studying at uni and i found that life is sooo difficult and much different . i would never mention it in details because i've my own reason why not to do so and for the sake of everyone including me . every semester i wish it could be much better but conversely happen :(( i cant wait to live the next part of my life . and i really hope its better . i'll make sure i landed my goal precisely because i think i did not do that in my uni life and thats why things became like this .

Love , Yana ♥